I'm scared
But not scared of you hurting me
I'm scared of me hurting myself
Just as I've done
Again and again
Never learning my lesson
Never wanting to learn
Because I love so openly
Willing and care free
Not looking to see if someone will catch me
Just a hope that someone is there
Yet most of the time I land with a thud
Alone, no one around to help pick me back up
So when someone asks me to jump; I hesitate
Even when they say they will catch me
Because I am so used to the impact
I always assume I'll hit the ground